Sunday, December 3, 2017

"Asleep" for a Decade

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I turned 49 today. Growing older used to frighten me, but it doesn’t anymore. I’m the same person I was when I was 20, just more mature and a whole lot wiser. However, younger people often treat me as though I’m ancient and should be puffing out dust with every breath, or I’m stared at as though I’ve sprouted a second head and tentacles. I'm unsure why I get these reactions, but I’m actually easygoing and goofy.

What does bother me is how I feel like I’m always floundering when I’m out beyond my little world here in Hickville. I went undiagnosed for Diabetes for about 10 years and now that I’m on medication and feel better, my mind is clear. It’s like the story of Rip Van Winkle. I truly feel like I’ve been asleep the last 10 years and have been jolted awake to find the world has changed. Sound silly? Well, Diabetes messes with your brain. Sugar is what makes your brain function, so too much glucose, which was my situation, left me in a constant mind fog. Too little sugar, which gives one confusion, can lead to death via sugar shock and cause many other issues as well. Going undiagnosed for so many years has left me with enormous blank spots in my memory that scare the hell out of me.
And now, steadily getting healthier, I look around at the world and realize that there are 10 years that have passed of which I have little memory, little knowledge of what was going on in the outside world. I marvel at how I functioned at all with so many children underfoot during that time. Heck, it surprises me how I cranked out stories like I did. Being in college emphasizes these things to me every day. It leaves me thoroughly rattled at times and I feel very vulnerable. I have this missing decade and suddenly I’m 49 years old. 
But growing old doesn’t really bother me. Not remembering parts of it does. I guess I have 10 years of catching up to do, so perhaps the next couple years of wonderful changes (think positive!) will make up for it!
Oh, one more thing. This is part shameless plug and part campaigning for literacy and great Christmas gifts. I have a new release coming out any day now for Christmas called Fangs for the Holidays, written under my Ana Lee Kennedy pen name, so watch here as well as my Twitter feed (twitter.com/FLBicknell) and my Facebook (www.facebook.com/AnaLeeKennedyFLBicknell) for the cover reveal and release date! It's a Christmas/New Year's novel that will make both readers of MF and MM happy. Also, please take a few moments to investigate my books pages, and remember that the gift of literature and the ability to read are true gifts no matter who your fave authors are or what genres you and your loved ones enjoy reading. Put a few books under someone’s Christmas tree this year. Books are very special gifts.
Love to all and wishing all my peeps a great holiday season!

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